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somehow,
e horo of e day is very true.
i have a heavy mood today.

ytd night went cycling with zg.
wento view bungalows,
my favourite.
somehow,
my mood always turn better after going thr.

chit chatted,
cup noodles,
and back home.
slept in e morning.


wake up for work.

while working,
daddy called.
his voice is funny.
i sense smth wrong.
very wrong.
called jinger to get home fast.
and my sense is right,
smth really went wrong.
told uncle and ran home.

broke down while running home.
kept praying and praying.
im worried.
very worried.
im afraid of losing them.

in a mind of confusion,
called ly.
i really dont know what to do.
thanks for e medication.

cancelled tml work.
sorry.
not purposely wanto cancel one.
orchard is too far away from wdl.
i might not have time to run home.
tt will take me days.
sorry kok,
promise you wont cancel liao.
sorry.
full of guilt.


mum and dad ask me go back work,
and i went back to work.
totally no mood during work.
uncle damn good and understanding.
didnt deduct hours or what.

im having a splitting headache.

好不容易,
心情回来了,
今天,
又被打回原型.


很累很累.
give me a break.
i might break down anytime.






seeing both loved ones,
hurting each other,
hurts me more than anyone else.
knowing tt both are in e wrong,
where should i stand?
this is already not e first time,
everyone went havoc,
running ard,
searching and searching.
im afraid e next time it happens,
i will lose either of them.
no,
i cannot afford to lose them.
no.
im afraid of e future.
im afraid of stepping into e future.
e future full of hurts and sadness.
e future whr 2 loved ones,
hurt each other.







im not alright.
i felt like crying.
i felt like screaming.


ignore me pls.