...

a troubled night.

had a run with my shout up e teletubbies hill,

and i felt much better.

felt much lighter in my mind.

but somehow,

after im back home,

everything back to square.

yes,

im somehow hurt.

tt i cant deny.

and suffered from a little insonmia.

only managed to slp a few hrs,

and awake on a sat morning on my own.

find it rare?

policy of my life:

happy go lucky,

colouful,

interesting,

minimise emo and sadness time,

and cheering up everyone ard me.
define colourful and interesting life for me pls.

im such a failure.

i might be able to cheer ppl up infront of me,

but behind me,

they arent happy.

and i must do it.

i cant afford to be sad.

life is too short,

i cant afford to spend my time sad.

but many things kept clashing on me at this time of period.

yuanlaiwoshizheyangdeyigeren.

im a big bad girl afterall,

in everyone's eye.

wandered away.

not knowing whr to go.

我只能永远读着对白,
读着你给我的伤害.
我原谅不了我自己,
就请你当作我已不在.