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tears welling up in my eyes when i see your pic up thr.
6 yrs have passed, time do flies.
i cant help but feel e helpless-ness and hurt in me.
i was not supposed to be thr.
we are supposed to be at home chatting happily.
i cant help it but keep questioning myself why did things turn out this way.
i hate myself tt i nearly forgotten how you look like,
tt i didnt make an effort to visit you more.
it hurts even more to see grandma looking at you with tears in her eyes.
at tt moment, i just felt like seeing you stand next to me so much, so much.
its been long since you visit me in my dreams.
i miss you so much so much, many many, alot alot.
hope you are doing well in e other world, shushu.