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to perceive is to suffer.

pretty boring weekend i had.
and im so sick and tired of life ever since sch started.
i dread of e tight schedule i had.

anw,
headed out to town to walk with wq and yang.
i had my nice nice sushi treats at cine.
yummie man.

knocked out str8 away when i reached home.
think i was damn tired.
woke up in e noon and headed to prac.
damn whenever i take cab thr sure late one.
i wonder why.
and prac was sucha boring one.
keep doing e same stuffs over and over again.
but den i pass 3 subs today.
happpppyyyy lurrr.
but stupid, no more slots till 2 weeks later.
hopefully alot of ppl cancel their slots.

met up with sis-es at cwp.
walked ard,
had pastamania and then movie treats.
run papa run is super duper nice man.
e girl is damn damn cute lur!
thumbs up.

sch again tml.
damn siannnnnn.
but e nice thing is i get to bond with my classmates.
LOVES 3B01. (:

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e most wasted of all days is one without laughter.

somehow,
i felt like im wasting my days this few days.

ytd was indeed e first day of sch for me.
im really not used to waking up at 6am.
oh great huh.
but den i only went for one lec,
skip e other lec and left after receiving eunice's call.
cab to her hse to find her.

so sinful,
had pizza hut delivery for lunch,
and then slack our way chatting e whole noon.
skipped prac to acc her.
byebye $.
pls come back to me fast.

had dinner at coffee shop and then i headed to tuition.
damn, e kid throw temper dont want do work.
booohoooo man.
i dont like.
i almost felt like killing her.

woke up early this morning for work,
and then rush for driving simulator lesson and prac.
stupid simulator, drive le supo giddy.
almost felt like vomitting.
and e worst is prac str8 after lesson.
make supo alot of mistakes today,
turning into wrong lane, speed too fast for circuit, engine keep stalling, car keep rolling off e slope, etc.
damn, i cant concentrate at all.

tuition later on again.
sian.

i wonder what happen to me.
i cant recognise e me now.
somehow i felt so weird all over.
somehow i felt so imbalance.
i wonder why, nobody knows.

anw,
cheers eunice!
whatever decision you make,
i will support you and be thr for you k!
take very good care of yourself alr!
i love you girl.

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e 3 hardest tasks in e world are neither physical feats nor intellectual achievements,
but moral acts: to return love for hate,
to include e excluded,
and to say, 'I was wrong.'

oh gosh.
my oh my.
first day of sch today and i overslept and skipped lec.
so idiot one lah me.
slept so early last night still can overslept.
15hrs of slp =.=

skipping tml lec for prac,
yes, very sorry my dear classmates.
and thank you, take notes for me!
haha.
so i guess my 'first day of sch' is on thur,
HOPEFULLY i can wake up.

went for a jog ytd with sis.
jog 2 rounds only and im like gonna die.
here pain thr pain.
i guess i should start exercising more.
oh so damn.
not gonna tell you how big e 2 rounds is.
hahaha!

and im supo sad to receive e reply email from scdf.
awwwwwww.
booooooooooooooooooooo.
nono, not gonna give up.


oh gosh.
im tired again.
sigh.

i m d d d d d d d d d d!

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no longer motivated by basic drives but by higher needs,
we expect more from ourselves and life.

so nice no sch today.
but den is only for this week.
so sigh sigh man.

i felt so guilty lur.
boooooo.

sat work in e morning den hit chinatown with wq ly yang sy and sw.
practically walk e whole day with them to *TOOT*
to be frank, very sian lah. =X

den sun went to gan ma's 10th grandchild one month's party.
damn damn alot of kids running ard.
your head can go spinning and spinning.
too many till i dont knw which one to play with. =.=
but i practically eat e whole afternoon.
e food is niceeeee and mama keep feeeding me with herbal soup.
oh my goshhh.
i felt so loved thr.
and im so so in love with e baby girl, lil xin yi and lil jinghui.
duh, obviously not my sis cus she is soso not cute at all.
blahhhhhhhhh.

and i was supo sad e whole night cus weizhi told me bout e height and weight limit for paramedic.
oh goshhhh.
im below e limit for both.
damnnnnnnnnnnit.
my planned routeeeeeee ruin.

i soso love talking to gohjianchong on phone,
cus he is like my newspaper, yahoo.com and complain machine.
he teaches me alot of stuffs tt i dont knw,
and listen to all my complains and rantings.
thanks bro!

and my schedule gonna be soso packed when sch start tml.
driving lesson in e morning, sch for lesson, tuition in e night.
and i need to add in jogging and exercising,
HOPEFULLY i will grow taller and increase weight but not fats.
yes i know it is supo dupo almost impossible.
but for my dream,
who cares whether it is impossible anot.

a very tough commitment and determination i must have.
i'd better one time pass my TP.
if not i will go bonkers.

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instead of focusing on what we cant do or dont do,
we should focus on what we can do and how to do it.

oh so BLAH one sias.
timetable is soooooooo cmi lah.
start late and end at 6.
wttttttttttt *TOOT*
now i dont knw how to squeeze in tuition.
its either i give up tuition or i skip lec.
sian sian sian.

working isnt so boring now.
cus i get to onlineeeeee~
so good.
can leech =X
and i can use msn, watch my show and blog.
lalalaaaaa~

and im so damn lazy to secure a position for attachment.
everything is not done yet.
resume, cover letter, blah blah blah.
sch or self secure?!?!?!

im so gonna hate sch when sch starts.
i have to squeeze in e bus to get back to woodlands,
and suffer from e lack of air squeezing with them,
and i guess i need super long to get home,
because its peakkkk hour and definitely thr's gonna be traffic jam.
and and i have to juggle my time between studies, tuition and drivinggggggg.
oh sian ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

oh you, sch.
i dont like you.
boooooooooooo.

i dread sch.
=((

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if you think friendship is so fragile, den so be it.
just dont regret what you've done in e future.

dont always blame on one side.
if you all wanna blame,
den blame yourself for not making an effort to listen to both side of e story.
most of you all tend to listen to one side of e story.
im not saying tt listening to one sided story is wrong,
but at least when all of you listen to both sides,
you all get to know e REAL story behind everything,
and will get to know who is right and wrong.

just what is so difficult to take some of your time off to listen to your dear friends?

i dont understand why it becomes this way.
to me, those actions are freaking childish.
come on,
you all are GROWN UP human beings alr.
stop acting like a kid.
those are how kids behave,
and not how a mature grown up human beings behave.
those actions make me feel so disappointed.

if you all did not make an effort to do smth,
very sorry but i have to say,
all of you have no rights to comment on others.
so kindly pretty pls stop all those actions.

if you think tt e friendship is damn so so cmi,
and nth can be done to save it or solve e prob,
den so be it,
just tell tt person you dont wanna be friend with him/her,
and carry on with your life w/o those "friends".
dont hang there doing nth,
everyone will feel terrible this way.

im not referring to you nor you nor you,
not anyone in particular.
neither am i trying to blame anyone here.
i just wanto say out how i feel.
so pls dont assume.
assumptions sucks.
and im not trying to offend anyone.
if i've offended you,
im truly sorry.
but think thru first before you feel offended.

but i hope what i said will set you and you and you to think.
are you a good friend to all your friends?
look back to e past.
what have you done?
have you done what a good friend should do?
if you have, tts good.
at least when ppl accuse or comment on you,
you know you have done your very best as a friend.
if you havent done and dont bother,
den dont hang on to tt friendship.

if you wanna say im not a good friend,
i admit.
but at least i know i tried b4.
我问心无愧.


sch is lidat,
outside also lidat.
damn, enough.

sorry no comments pls.
dont ask me also.

done ranting.

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reading is a basic tool in e living of a good life

clubbing at mos with my girls on fri.
thou only 6 of us turn up,
but we had loads of fun.
drinking, dancing, talking, cam-whoring.
hope to have a full gathering again!

cab home tt night.
was feeling so lethargic.

sat noon was out shopping with yingxuan and sis.
first time walk cwp till leg pain.
i wonder why.

sun work in e morning,
and then cab to visit esther lessie at her hse.
take care lessie!!
i love her hse.
like a mini library to me.
and damn,
her ds lite supo nice to play sias.
play till i dont feel like going home.
and my classmates are guitar pro man!
i suddenly felt like taking up guitar lessons again.
my guitar is rotting in my storeroom.

while on e way back.
saw a omgosh incident on e bus.
got one indian old man miss his stop and wanted to beat e driver up.
like so crazy one.
warn e driver to let him down at e traffic light,
if not he will hammer him.
alight le stand infront of e bus dont want move away.
=.=
waste my time.


and this few days my life is revolving ard work, tuition and driving lesson.
damn lethargic.
i can feel myself falling aslp during tuition.
yawns.

i have to slp early early and early.
sch starting next week.
sian sian and more sian-ness.

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what we call e secret of happiness is no more a secret than our willingness to choose life

chalet was great!!!
much better than our first one.
thou not much ppl,
but i enjoy my time spent with them.
kinda regret booking 1 night only.

met up with yun and yanni at pasir ris inter and bus to downtown.
check in,
met up with weizhi,
and off we wento loyang point to get our stuffs.
we over spent thr because we get all e best food items.
haha.
back to chalet,
rest, and start to clean our food and marinate.
and damn e rain.
i think e rain hates me.
whenever i go chalet sure rain one.

we set up fire in e rain,
and finally we get to eat.
yummie delicious tt i cant stop eating.
slowly jovine and sec friends came,
followed by jeremy, daren and larry.
and thank you mr weizhi!
i know i cook e best crabmeat on earth.
HOHOHOH!

night we played indian poker,
den to swamp for our night walk.
im terribly sorry towards jovine ah.

back to chalet after some stuffs happen,
den had our mahjong games till morning.
tts was terror,
because all of us were like cannot concentrate anymore.
had mac for breakfast,
and pics taking with my "mr bf"
back to room and continue mahjong again.
prepared, check out and cab home.

i slpt like a pig immediately when i reach home.
night went for prac.
tt was like omg man.
damn tiring.

oh man,
now i need to go for more lessons to pass stage 2.
sigh.
$$$$$$


and later on clubbing with my islerx girls!
cant wait to see them.
LOVES!



me and yanni at bbq pit.
e bitch and e bastard.
huiyun and me
yanni, me and my "mr bf"
i love you lur~
i look like im seducing him. =X

and damn weizhi, gay with my "mr bf".

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e best things in life arent things

i so so love my phone.
jovine acc me to bring my phone for plastic surgery on sun.
we went to suntec surgery room.
but e girl thr supo guai lan,
so we walked to bugis one.
e guy thr friendly!
i like!
but i stood thr for supo long deciding which skin i want.
guess jovine almost kill me when i keep changing decision.

walked ard,
had our supo filling dinner at one of e restaurant.
she lah,
craving for sharks fin,
so we ordered 2 bowls and one omelette fried rice.
and wtf,
e sharks fin supo big bowl man.
cant finish both our sharks fin and fried rice.

and omggggggggggosh.
my kid's SA1 is coming.
die die die!!!!!
sigh.

off to chalet!
i hope it will be fun.
i so so miss my peeps.

and fri clubbing with e girls.
LOVES!

after paying for all e chalet's stuffs and my phone's surgery,
im proud to declare my bank is left with only 5cents.
=.=

my lovely sister, chenjinghui.

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presence is more than just being there

dumb-di-dumb.
so much for fan nao-ing so long what phone to buy.
because e phone i like mum says oos.
oh damn.
and so, got e same phone as sis.
e phone is so irritating.
guess im too used to using nokia phones.

and vincent supo funny.
because i couldnt make up my mind what phone to buy,
he drew it out in msn for me.
haha!

and prac was gooodddy.
got back e same instructor.
damn nice lah him.
i like!

gosh gosh,
i couldnt find e paper i wrote my chalet booking reference.
now i cant check.
oh great.

and empress and e warrior was niceeee.
but kinda short lah.
e fighing scene is so omg.

this post sounds so random.
i dont know.

i so so love my msn.
me to you bearrrrr skinsss.
(:

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good life is inspired by love and guided by knowledge

phew phew,
a very scary encounter i had at my tuition kid's hse.
i almost freak out,
and wanted to run out of e hse.
but still i stayed on to finish e tuition.
i hope i wont meet this kind of encounter again.
pretty pls.

i got back my lappy ytd.
its like OH FINALLY.
thanks sw for acc-ing and helping me to carry!

back home to install everything,
and wtf!
something still not right.
grrrrr.

so morning i woke up early,
brought my lappy to uncle's shop.
he help me repair while i go for tuition.
thanks uncle!

now finally ok alr.
i hope it doesnt go bonkers again.

kelian de shuhan,
cousin just told me something bad happen to her.
i hope she is alright,
my baobei.

and stupid cab company,
refund 8bucks only. =.=
i still lose out alot man.


hectic day tml.
prac in e noon,
den rush for 2 tuitions after tt.
sigh.
money money why isit so hard to find you.

randomly,
d for dumb.
hohoho.

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fate, it cant be put into words

tiring day i had.
woke up early to go to e wake.
have to be there for the whole ceremony which last e whole afternoon.
and then at 4plus,
we headed down to mandai crematorium.
one sentence my uncle said to all of us b4 sipeh was pushed in to cremate,
"子女一定要孝顺父母,
不要等到他们离开的时候,
后悔就来不及了."
this sentence hit me very hard.
yea,
cherish everyone ard you,
especially your parents.

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life is cruel.

wasnt able to slp well this few nights.
suffering from serious insomnia.
and now a serious pimple outbreak.

had a long long chat with ly on sat night.
thanks for e talk sweets.
now i feel much better.
at least im able to convince myself they will be happy at e other world.

yang's mum longbang me, ly, yang and sy to town on sun.
slack ard den headed to padang to watch e f1 thingy.
was quite an eye opening actually.
den headed to bugis for our lunch cum dinner,
and shop ard a little b4 his mum drove us back again.


night was pretty busy revolving ard e funeral this few days.
e atmosphere is much better now.
e only heart breaking thing is tt when ah gong told me stuffs bout sipeh,
his eyes was very watery.
e only companion to coffee left him,
and now i must make loads of efforts to visit ahgong ahma more.
no more procrastinating.

and tml sipeh will be cremated.
run sipeh run.
dont let e fire hurt you.

thanks d.