...

health is worth more than learning.
w/o health,
you are nth.

a very happy birthday to jocelyn jocelyn and more jocelyn.
and happy birthday to nicholas too!
best wishes yea!
meet up with you soon for e dinner.
and and not forgetting a happy belated birthday to jerry too!
best wishes!
=D


phew,
everything is over alr.
its like super fast lur.
i couldnt remember what i did anw.
i just got many thanks to all of them,
and sorry its kinda boring.

nah,
im gonna say what i wanna say below.
read it if you want.
(:

firstly,
i hafta thanks g-force for helping me out throughout e whole thing.
from buying to cleaning to carrying to starting fire to bbq-ing food to packing up.
many many thanks.
i know thanks one word is not enough,
and im very happy tt you all help out,
and dote on me alot.
especially wq.
thanks papa!


secondly,
hafta thanks all my beloved islerx sisters.
im glad tt they turn up thou its still not a full gathering.
im so sorry its kinda boring and i didnt entertain you girls much.
i hope to meet up with you girls soon,
hopefully for sentosa trip, supper or shopping trip yea!
many loves and many thanks for you girls.


thirdly,
my 10yrs sister eunice.
im so surprised and happy she turn up despite having smth on before tt,
and still have to cab down.
awww.
i love you so much my girl.

fourth-ly,
to evan dearie and xiaorui.
thanks for coming down.
LOVES!

fifth-ly.
to uncle fran and bastard weizhi.
im so excited to see them appearing at e pit ytd.
they made an effort to come.
oh thanks!
and i love e slipper so much.
go against my mario.
(:

sixth-ly,
to louis, kahseng, pan, qingyong's grp,
thanks for turning up.
hehheh.
thanks for e fruits ah!
LOL!

seventh-ly,
to carefree.
thou we drifted super many alot,
but im glad you all turn up.
thanks!

eight-ly,
to keanyen,
HOHOHO!
thanks for coming down,
and all those encouraging words.
sorry ah,
i didnt let you leave earlier and you hafta take cab home.
thanks for always acc-ing me.
=D

nine-ly,
to all those hilton peeps,
herman, jack, detong, jackson, zhiquan, matthew, gordan, tiffany, ebon and siewzhen.
thanks for coming down after a hard day at work.
thou i didnt entertain you all much,
and got nth much left to eat.
hehheh.
thanks!

and lastly,
my family members.
e most important ppl in my life.
my grandma, my mummy for helping me out ytd afternoon,
thou they say they wont help me out.
my daddy for helping me to collect e food,
and e rest of my relatives for coming down,
making e atmosphere lively b4 it starts.


not forgettting those birthday wishes from e rest not mention above.
thanks ah!

ok done.
think everyone is in alr.
shall upload photos when im free.

bored.
what shall i do today.
sigh.
today shall be e last day.

...

what is required is not a lot of words,
but effectual ones.

yeap.
today is e day.
e bbq day.
sigh.

thur have been slping till super late at home.
heng didnt go work,
if not im equal to dead now.
headed to cwp met up with wq and zg.
roam ard selecting e cake i want.
ok i know im fussy,
cus we kept walking ard and ard.
and thanks wq for e cake!
(:

fri headed to shengshiong with wq zg and sw.
ate and did a super duper fast shopping.
we grab all e things we need and cabbed back.
back to my hse,
gf, fun and sam came and helped me out.
thanks loads.
practically,
i did nth but look.
wq did most of e job.
from cleaning e food to cutting, etc.
a very big thank you guys!

had a little chat with sw and i felt much better.
hohoho.
thanks ah!
he said many many touching words which nearly make me tear.
duh,
but he dont want me to tear,
he want me to cry badly,
with joy.
=D


woke up super early today.
met wq,
and headed to e market to buy stingray and stuff.
think one yr,
i only step into e market once.
=.=


i needa catch some slp now.
have not been slping much ytd night.
all because of e damn it insomnia.

hope many ppl turns up,
and it will be a successful and fun one.
and pray hard all e food can be finish up and it doesnt rain.
if not i can go bang e wall alr.
oh pi li pa la man.


i will be e happiest girl today.
i hope so.
a simple and effectual word is more than enough.

...

e reason ppl keep working non-stop,
is to stop those wild thoughts running in their mind.

ppl!
im having a bdae bbq on sat 29 sept at vista park ard 6 plus 7.
pls do come and have fun alright!
LOVES-


alright,
im super shag now,
after mia-ing for 3 days.
have been working nonstop,
with just a little slp.
like wtf man.
now i understand why some ppl keep working non stop,
to stop thinking of stupid stuffs.
anw, its proven effective by me!


work was alright this 3 days.
outside catering at red dots museum was super fun,
but body was not tt well.
e next two days were in house.
damn it man.
i kept eating non stop this 3 days at work.
got buffet,
got staff food.
blahh and blahh.
like wtf,
getting fatter le lah!
pissed off with my itchy mouth.



after this week,
im gonna take a long break.
hohoho.
gonna break off from all this shits.

anw,
my lovely darling.
thanks for wanting to give me a bdae treat,
and those stuff you told me today.
i appreciate it alot.
and im sorry i couldnt make it later on in e night for dinner.
hehheh.
shall meet up with you very soon ok!
misses.

oh fugly,
my navel stud infection.
damn it!
i know deep inside,
im not strong at all.

...

遇到可相信的朋友时,
要好好和她相处,
因为在人的一生中,
可遇到知己真的不容易.

hmms,
万分感谢,
i have loads of nice friends ard me.
LOVES!

anw,
just back from vista park celebration.
woohoo.
like super fun seh.
keep running here and thr.

looo looo laa laa.
work at 10am later on.
gotta wake up at 7.
oh fugly.
gtg slp alr.
nights peeps!

hehheh,
loves leeyun!

------------------------------------------------

/edited

sis's growing ball ball/waterbabies (or whatever-is-it called) super fun to play with sias.
e colour super nice.
oh my!
i wanna get it and grow too!

gone-

...

遇到你真的爱的人时,
要努力争取和他相处下去,
因为当他离去时,
一切都来不及了.

oh fugly.
im feeling weak all over.
woke up with pain all over my body,
with e stupid abdominal pain.

met zg and headed to pan's hse to get e ice box.
e journey thr and back home nearly can kill me.
i almost wish tt i can die.
anw,
thanks zg for helping me carry back to my hse!

back home,
was alr running a slight fever.
thanks huh illness,
i couldnt enjoy my day,
and have to take a nap.

woke up to realise i got many mosquito bites on my neck.
super itchy when i was slping.
but got mosquito bite neck one meh!
on e other hand,
maybe i itchy hand go scratch one.
blahhhh.
forget it.

i wanna get well soon.
i wanna go down and have some fun later on.
i wanna go work tml one lor.

wq and co. selling drinks at vista park latern festival celebration later on.
do drop by yea!
LOVES!

...

happiness is a choice tt requires efforts at times.

hippeee.
total agree with tt sentence.
im a happy kid,
happy kid,
happy kid.
cus i put in super many efforts.


today, which is supposed to be sat,
but now e time is 12.51am,
which means its ytd,
is SISTER DAY!

i woke up and watched vcd.
a sudden urge to go shopping,
and so i asked my sis.
my sis told me today sister day,
and both of us went shopping!.
hohoho.

reached bugis 7 plus,
we did a very fast shopping.
bought super many stuff in half an hr time.
and i spent some of my bbq money.
boohoo seh.

trained back at 9 plus,
and back home.
in a super tired and shag mind.

so,
i just came back from vista park.
blahh blahh blahh.


im sooooo bored.
next week gonna work like hell.
im not gonna be me.
hohoho.
not anymore.

a promise,
which turns into many promises.
好朋友.

...

its always better to be loved,
den to love.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST XIAOHUI!
many loves for you!
and a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO QINGYONG AND PAN.
best wishes to all of you.
(:


helped out xh with all e bbq stuff buying on thur,
was like quite fun lah,
thou very tiring.

skipped work on fri den wento get her present ready.
headed to qyong's hse and help them get ready.
carried stuff thr and help them start fire.
haas.
kinda shag ah,
cus dont knw how to.
nvm,
our saviour came and take over me and ly.

e bbq was fun,
its like a gathering for all of us.
was quite happy to see many long-time-no-see faces.
islerx, carefree, dots.
many loves.

anw,
cake smashing with all sorts of i-dont-know-what stuff.
yoohoo.
and xh smash e cake on my face,
and hug me with her wet wet body.
awwww.

ate super many crab sticks till im scared of it now.
anw,
e food was nice.
e XO chicken especially.
hehhehh.

watched them sabo drinking.
was super funny lur.
stayed all e way till everyone went back home.
sent xh home,
used her toilet,
and walk back home.

was super tired yet i couldnt sleep.
was having frequent insomnia.
its like wtf lor.
terrible feeling man.


now im super bored,
bored,
and nth but bored.

...

love is about giving w/o any return expectation.

e above sentence was told by mrgohjianchong.
a very meaningful sentence indeed.


wanted to blog.
but i have nth to blog about.
tts how bo liao i am now.
blahhhhhhhhhhh!


boring life indeed.
needa get away.
boohooo.

...

love is not love tt alters when alteration finds.

most probably im not a good friend at all.
i couldnt help out with all my friends tt are in need.
i couldnt do anything to help them feel better.
i couldnt make them laugh like how i used to.
i couldnt find e courage to tell them to be happy like how i used to,
because simply i couldnt do it myself.
快乐是从内心发出来的.
当我自己都做不到时,
我能如何对你们说?
对不起.
请谅解.


当我勇敢地站出来面对一切时,
才发现,
现在逃避现实的人,
不是我.


my dear friends,
if anything happens,
and you need someone to talk to,
im here for you all.
im just a phone call away.
im not sure if i will be of any help,
but i promise to lend you my best listening ears,
and shoulder when you needed it.



i find wendy's september 17 post super meaningful.
do read it if you have e time.
somehow,
it taught me something important and valuable.


its alr 4.30am.
i need to wake up in another 6 hrs for work.
awww.
how i wish i can no need go work.

getting late.
nights to those nt yet aslp,
plus those slping soundly on their bed.
好想做个梦女孩.

...

weeping may endure for e night,
but joy maynot cometh in the morning.

a new skin,
a new song.
created ytd with a little help from my sis and some codes of others.

sis was cute ytd.
she left me one letter on my study table.
cover stated my name, address and to be delivered to my study table.
content is super cute which makes me laugh when i read it.
at least it made my night.

watched vcd till super late,
and ended up waking up late.
met up with ly,
and we headed to town to walk ard.
spend loads of time at fep.
got myself one new slipper.

headed to taka to look up mic ai.
hehheh.
happy to see her.
and her durian mooncake is super duper nice seh!
yummy!

met up with wq and co.
and headed to cine for pool session.
slack abit thr,
and train back.
had supper at 515,
and back home.

girls!
after yt and pearl promos,
sentosa trip yea!
(:



i wanna go strolling.
STROLLING~
镜子里的我, 好不象我.

...

friendship is precious,
not only in the shade,
but in the sunshine of life.

today time pass by super duper slow.
spent my whole afternoon watching vcd.
blahh blahh~

ytd night eunice wrote smth for me on msn.
hehheh.
love her too!
misses!

my girls!
sentosa trip soon?
or any shopping trip?
miss them all loads.

after everything,
im gonna take a break.

what shall i do for my bdae neh?
bbq?
clubbing?
shopping?
or just a simple gathering?
or dont celebrate?
damn it.
心里很不好受.

...

when e power of love,
overcomes e love of power.

b4 today,
现实中的我很痛苦.
梦境里的我也逃不了.
but after today,
现实中的我,
会努力地去开心面对一切.
而希望梦境里的我,
也能一样.


不会再去掩饰我的情绪.
伤心就伤心,
开心就开心.
想笑就笑,
想哭就哭,
想发脾气就发脾气.


i have many things to rant out.
but i guess,
this isnt e right place.
anger and sadness combined in me.
时间,
is all i need probably.



catch 881 today with ly wq and yang.
super touching.
tear-ed cus e songs all remind me of smth.

headed to wq hse for another vcd watching.
blah and blah,
fill in e blanks***,
and back home.


gonna spend my time watching vcds.
and some time thinking and sorting thru my mind.
i've yet to come up with a decision for myself.
i guess its time to do so.
i dont wanna keep running away from it.

anw,
i have to thanks loads of ppl for pulling me back when im trying to run away from e reality.
from today onwards,
i will try my best not to avoid.
and slowly,
eliminate this bad habit of mine.

i felt much better now.
phew.
我是这么一个不起眼的人,
而你是窗外的另一个风景.

...

人要学会懂得拿起与放下.
跌到,就要自己爬起来.

bi poo bi poo,
paramedic pls.
kill me or cure me.

i finally had a good night slp ytd.
thanks to *TOOT*

headed shopping with ly ytd.
so long since we last shop.
wento coach to look at all those bags,
and headed bugis.
shop with all our mights.
how i wish i got loads of money for me to spend.
for me to vent my anger on.


hmms,
end result not bad.
bought loads of stuff.
and i overspent.


back and met up with e rest.
pi li pa la stuff happen.
shant elaborate.
drink a little of white wine.
super nice.
e feeling of tipsy topsy.
e feeling of dancing in e air.


nah,
i will be good,
i will be nice.
i will be fine.
cus im jocelyn.
始终抵不过那种感觉.

...

在爱情世界里,
没有谁对不起谁,
也没有对与错,
只有谁不懂得珍惜谁.

a super sway and hectic day i had.
now is alr 3am+.
sigh,
i should be slping by now.

wanted to leave for work fast enough so i wont be caught in e rain,
but e moment i open e door,
e rain came pouring down.
so i wento search for my umbrella and wanted to leave hse when e rain stop.
went into hse and put back e umbrella.
was walking down e stairs when e rain came pouring again.
oh wtf.
so i went home and get my umbrella.
so pi li pa la one.

while working,
stupid da yi ma came.
like wtf.
i had a bad abdominal cramp for e whole day.
its almost killing me.

uncle asked me one qn today.
what is e most impt thing for a woman?
money, career, friends or family.
i was stunned,
cus i didnt know how to ans him.


met up with ly after work,
den met zg and had dinner at 515.
long time since i really eat so much.
diet is such a torture.
i hope to see some results from it.

blahblahblahblah,
and i ended up walking up teletubbies hill alone to search for *TOOT*
actually e feeling of walking alone is great.
at least i have some time for myself walking in a dark path on my own.

found *TOOT* and had a talk with them.
and we ended up under sam's block,
listening to his lecture.
a good one indeed.
似乎想通了什么.

back to vista and meet up with them.
fill in e blanks atmosphere.
i just hope i can do smth to help everyone.
but nah,
i dont knw what i should do.
sigh.

a little prayer for them.
i just want them all to be happy.
tts all i need in order to be happy too.


i realised,
its been such a long time since i really laugh from e bottom of my heart.
from tml onwards,
i shall be back to e old me,
entertaining them,
making them laugh.
i dont care if they will think if its irritating.
开心是最重要的.
而真正的开心,
是打从心底开心的.
不是那种虚伪的开心.


ok,
im really tired after all those sleepless nights.
i hope i will be able to catch a good sleep tonight.


night peeps.
祝大家都开开心心的.

...

i learn 3 words bout life.
"it goes on."

have been suffering from insonmia for a few nights alr.
i couldnt slp when i was super tired.
have to lie on bed super duper ultra long b4 i drift off to slp,
and waking up early for work.
i wonder whats wrong with me.
maybe think slightly more this few days.

anw,
im on diet now.
HOHOHO.
ppl pls dont ask me out to eat.
i have to resist all food temptation.


everyday work.
have to earn abit for bbq and bdae presents.
awww.


had dinner with ly ky sw and sy at cwp just now.
super duper full seh.
next time i must cut down on food i eat.
lalaaa~

i headed home first while they stay at vista park, i guess.
i wonder whats wrong with me.
watched vcd at home,
and my aunt came telling me bout coach website,
asking me to take a look,
cus my cousin's friend working at e boutique.

so i wento talk a look with my aunt and my mummy.
saw alot of nice nice stuff.
not really ex after e discount thou.
but still im a little budget,
trying to save as much as i can.
but mummy agreed to buy me one coach mini skinny wallet for my bdae.
oh damn,
i love her loads.

tml gotta go psycho my daddy to sponsor me a little for bbq alr.
hehehheheh.
=X

saw super big baa baa at cwp.
but e hair curly one.
must be my baa baa's daddy.
HOHOHO.
super funny lah.
but e shop assistant SUCKS!
ROAR!

horo this few days keep telling me to look after my health.
i wonder whats wrong.
yea,
smth must be wrong some whr in me.
so blahh blahh blahh.

sigh,
gotta go lie on bed alr.
if not i not sure what time i will be able to drift to slp.
我不知道我能不能再次承受这一切.

...

laughter is e closest distance btw 2 people.

dont you agree with it?


its almost one week since i last post.
im lazy lazy and more lazy.
plus a little of no mood to blog,
and add a tiny pinch of nth to blog.

alright,
im here to rant!

WAHHHHHHHHHHH!
stupid results.
super sad lah.
while working just now,
i receive my result thru sms by e sch.
wtf.
i nearly felt like crying man.
mostly Cs.

Finance - C+
Human Resource - B
MBS - C+
Psychology - B+
Sociology - C
Entrepreneurship - P
Apel 2 - P

wahhh.
no A sias.
how come sias.
sigh.

and stupid sch cheat my gpa.
my combine gpa doesnt tele at all.
rahhhrahhhhh!
bite bite bite~


sigh,
forget it.
i can do nth bout it.
like what e others told me,
i can only work hard for e next semester.
and i must.


lets see,
hmms,
last one week,
have been working during e weekdays,
and weekends out to play.

headed to town on sat,
didnt manage to get anything i want.
wento find xh and trish at gap.
so happy to see both of them.
after tt headed to have "dou hua" and my fav shui jing bao.
yummie~


sun mah,
watch ratatouille.
super nice can!
i love it so much.

at night headed to sw's hse to watch e 2 horror dvd me and ly rented.
brought along my blackie and baa baa to acc me.
super scary lah.
scary till i fall aslp.
i only watch half for both.
duh!


mon same routine again,
watch vcds at sw's hse.
super boring lah.
but i didnt slp.
his mummy very nice.
treat us eat jelly, my favourite!


ytd went for my facial at vista.
super pain sias.
now my face is like baboon butt.
red red one.
i hope it will recover fast.
rahhh!


many many ppl bdae coming.
yippee~


and i have super alot of vcds to watch on hand.
blahhh!


ok,
tt is so random of me.


and i realised,
when im moody,
i tend to eat alot.
and i kept eating non stop this few days,
den after tt keep exercising.
whats wrong with me lur.
ROAR!

gone.
done with all my rantings.
想回到过去.

...

fear is purely the anticiation of pain.
whether it is physical,
mental,
spiritual or emotional,
get over it.

i have to remind myself constantly bout it.
alright.
my mind is thinking and thinking of what to blog bout.

anw,
i initiated jogging session ytd night.
so met up with them and had a jog.
was super tired den.

anw,
today work was alr.
starting to feel a little sian sitting thr watch vcd.

after work,
back home to change,
and i went out for my jog on my own.
back home,
watch tv,
and out for my dinner with my sis and cousin.


sigh.
im super bored now.
i dont know what to do man.

most of my girls are not free.
some working,
some exams,
some away from singapore.
shall meet up very soon.

anw,
all e best to pearlyne and yingting for their exams.
(:


i'd better go find smth to do.
im gonna go crazy.
BLAHHHHH!
每当我想到____,
我的心一阵阵地痛.

...

being happy doesnt mean tt everything is perfect,
for simply,
i've decided to live beyond imperfection.

alright,
lady boss was super nice to lend me vcds to watch during work ytd.
ly and gf bought donuts and yoghurt for me,
while lady boss bought me snacks and drinks.
super nice of them.
thanks so much!

after work headed to sw's hse to watch vcd.
i played conquer thr.
e ghost movie and scary movie 4 super scary.
i scream when i saw e little boy.
oh god.

had dinner at vista,
and i had a sudden mood change.
sorry guys.
i had many tots in mind.

back home and i dont have e mood to blog,
so i just played my game.

heading to work later on again.
same routine,
eat and watch vcd.
what kind of work isit?
im just too lucky to have this kind of work lur.

anw,
i miss my girls.
meet up today or tml for dinner?
shall ask them later on.

and xh,
sorry didnt call back you.
bz, tired and forgotten bout it.
many sorry.
catch up with you soon yea.
take care!
(:

gtg.
take care peeps.
and no worries,
im perfectly fine.
=D

..

5 hrs of work later on.
sigh.
what should i do thr man.
brrrrrrr.

blog later in e night.

...

everything happens for a reason,
and tt everything eventually works out for e good.
sometimes, you can't see e good,
and it takes a while before e benefits are made obvious to you.

i had a super tiring day ytd.
shant talk bout what happen on sat night.
kinda angry for dont-know-what reasons.

anw,
met evan early in e morning for work.
it feels great going back but a little weird.

prepared everything and we took a coach from hilton to orchid country club.
think most of e time we are slacking thr man.
everything is set nicely alr.
dont have to load or unload truck.
earn loads of free hours doing nth.

had lunch,
and a little talk with evan.
so much to catch up with her.

dinner,
and started all e briefing.
e new manager is super pi li pa la man.
i miss max teo so much.
and first time seeing mrgohjianchong and e others in suit.
damn cool~

blah and blah.
and e event is a muslim community celebration,
with 130 tables,
1500 pac,
with over 150 staffs.
guest of honour is e prime minister.
his speech super duper long seh.
stand until leg pain.
woohoo~

was e food runner plus server.
damn it.
so long nvr carry heavy stuff le.
super heavy man.
and super bz period.

time passes fast,
as i kept running here and thr delivering e food w/o stopping.
and e whole event ended.
my leg bth alr,
and my hand almost break from those heavy stuff,
so didnt work OT.

back to hilton to bathe,
super lazy and tired to take mrt,
so cab-ed back with evan and chin hong.
e cab uncle super attitude seh.
should have take down his plate number.

anw,
e uncle drove super fast.
tot we will reach woodlands very fast.
but wtf!
halfway got traffic jam as thr is a serious accident.
awwww!
imagine you keep looking at e meter jump yet e taxi isnt moving at all.
*&^%$#$%^&

wah seh.
e accident super jialat sias.
with almost half of e car front part smashed,
and e taxi bang into e trees.
go see e newspaper today.
should have e pics.
but i didnt see any casualties or bodies ard.

and e ambulance is damn cool ok!
no need to stuck in btw e traffic jam,
can drive past from e side.

met up with ly for supper and a little talk.
i felt better after talking to her,
and hope she feels better too.
(:

back home,
com-ed,
and fell aslp.

anw,
XIAOHUI is back!
hehheh.
LOVES!

...

worry never robs tml of its sorrow.
it only saps today of its joy.

back to blogging.
hmmphs!

back to wgs ytd.
simply miss e food thr.
but e concert is a little boring.
slack ard,
and i went back home to have my nap.

mummy and daddy woke me up for dinner.
headed to vista for steamboat.
yummy!
so long since we last sat down and had dinner tgt.
but sis was missing from e dinner.

blah and blah,
and met them at vista for their jog.
cycle with them while they jog.
wasnt really in e mood.
sorry guys.

after sam came,
mood turn better simply because i cannot stand his jokes and funny faces.
i kept laughing and laughing man.
fell from e bench to e floor.
and had a bad tummy ache from all those laugh.

back home and i couldnt get to slp.
maybe cus i laugh too much.
sigh.


working later on.
so bored sias.
not sure what to do there.
blahhhh!

tml will be a crazy day.
sian.