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wishes.

couldn't much remember what i did last few days.
slacking? guess so.

headed to suntec with sweets on thur.
thr's burberry warehse sale, bodyshop and IT fair.
bought a few items from bodyshop warehse.
its super cheap.
e girls thr are like omg.
like nvr buy things b4.


mj session tt day was damn fun!
guess all of them were so irritated tt i kept winning for 7 rounds.
maybe tt was just pure luck.

and ytd headed to wgs carnival early in e morning.
was freaking hot.
brought glenda down to play and teachers tot she is my daughter.
so funny.
lan session after tt with d and sw.
now i love playing company of hero.
(:

supper session with girls and some of carefree was really fun.
we had supper at geylang dian xin.
heng i didnt drive if not i would have lost my way.
soso pei fu yt and py for knowing e way around.
talks on our sec life was so damn funny.
and makes me miss sec sch so much.
headed to marina barrage and slack.
and and!!
i saw shooting star first time in my life, twice!
after tt everyone was looking at e sky.
haha.
thr's quite a few shooting star but i only manage to see it twice.
was a very beautiful night.
(:


today mummy woke me up early in e morning,
to acc her to IT fair.
its like way too early man.
she wanted me to drive thr,
but too bad, i dont knw e way thr.
so i psycho-ed chenpapa and he drove us thr.
e crowd thr is like omg.
bought camera but didnt manage to get a new phone.
stupid s***t**, system so lousy.


and im flying to bkk tml!!
so eggcity.
hopefully e exchange rate will be higher thr den i can shop more!
((:


just accepted a job at stansfield college.
e tot of starting work is so sigh.

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突然间好累好累...

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Happy belated bdae to auntie. (:
Had a very sumptous meal at jurong eating crabbies.
Hope she enjoyed e night.

And a happy birthday in advance to:
Sweets Sim Lee Yun,
KheeRui,
XiaoRui and
Andy on e 8th.
May you all have e bestest wish. (:

Class chalet at NSRCC was uber fun.
E bungalow was uber big and pretty sias.
Next time chalet must book thr alr.
Mj with them and i lost. Sigh.
But was uber fun.
Headed out to testdrive my car with lessie and joyce and then home sweet home.
More chalet to come!

skipped e course in sch cus i overslept and sch msged me says i dont have to go e next day alr.
So funny.
anw i dont intend to go also.


And im so broke now.
I need to find a job soon.

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♥ ducky boat rides. (:

happy belated bdae to my dearest sis.
love you many many many!
celebrated her bdae just before her bdae is gone.
hope she loves it.
(:


and and,
im a happy girl today.
last min decision to batam.
didnt do much,
just follow them ard to settle things.
but we ate super alot.
like just have lunch only and we are having dinner again.
but all are nice nice seafood treats.
while waiting for dinner to be served,
we rode on e ducky boat ride.
like 惡作劇之吻 e show lidat.
love it so much, so fun!
but e sad thing is i didnt take photos of us and e ducky boat.
anw, bring me thr again k!
♥


and im having a course in sch in about 8 hrs time.
and im still sitting infront of e com.
hope my mind wont psycho me to continue slping. :x
and then to class chalet bbq!
and sorry my dear classmates, cant stay overnight cus got course in sch.
will try to reach early tml yea!
(:

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everytime as i sat down infront of my lappy,
i would ponder over what my life is all about.
i always have this weird thinking tt is so different from others.


now tt i am unofficially graduated from poly.
i dont knw which step to take next.
someone so half-hearted like me,
will i be able to stay at a job for long?
will i be able to survive in e society?
will i eventually able to settle down and get a decent pay job.
who doesnt want to have a high pay job right?

but somehow i have just this little confidence in myself.
what can i make out of it?
sometimes i just wish tt i can find someone rich and get married str8 away so tt i wont have to bother so much.
but on e other hand,
i guess tts not e life i want.


i encountered many many things in life.
from family to friends to r/s.
some are things other ppl nvr encountered b4,
some are things i hope i will encounter again,
and some are things i hope i wont have to go thru it again.

i have so many so many regrets in life which i cant put it down.
i just cant stop myself from thinking about it.
am i a good daughter/sis?
am i a good friend?
am i a good gf?
and in e near future a good employee/employer and wife.

sigh,
why do i have to think so much.
i hate it when im alone.


nevertheless,
im glad to know my girls,
e guys,
besties,
and my wonderful poly mates.
somehow i regret i was not able to attend all e outings tt they had.
but from now onwards,
i will try to.


sucha random post.
and i dont knw what im talking bout.
i just typed what came to my mind.


e overdued pics from last day of sch.
and im alr starting to miss sch so much.

grp mates ; e best.

as usual, e scandalous pair.

e best bro ever in sch.

cny visits to my hse.

steamboat prepared by chenmama for us.

and, our last presentation tgt.

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firstly,
congrats to our girl, yt for passing her TP.
one more driver in our grp.

and then a happy belated bdae to Benho, Kent and Weisheng.
(:

secondly,
i missed out ytd's celebration of learning and attachment cert taking in sch ytd.
all because of waiting for 30 mins cab and i decided not to go.
i missed out class outing to zouk at night.
i dont knw why.
but i just dont feel like going clubbing.
im sorry peeps but still,
i feel a little regretful.
i missed out so much fun and seeing pics w/o me is a little saddening.
have myself to blame.


thirdly,
i miss out e girls outing today to celebrate for yt.
but then, i attended xinyi's bdae party at kor kor's hse with gan ma.
i had fun thr but e kids voice is killing my ears.
sorry girls, meet up with you all soon.


fourth-ly,
left 4 dead is so damn nice.
i have been craving to go lan shop so much recently.


lastly,
i thought certain ppl will change for e better.
yes i know its the word 'thought' again.
never did i realise tt leopards will nvr change its spots.
it hurts a little to realise it now,
but im still standing strong,
i believe i will and i can.
maybe im e one being sensitive,
maybe you didnt knw what to do,
maybe...
maybe...
and many more possibilities.
but still,
i hate it whenever it happens.
or i only have myself to blame.
cus in e first place,
why should i bother so much.

p.s. pls dont comment and ask bout this.
your help will be greatly appreciated.
thank you very much.

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had a nice outing with sweets today.
so long since we last went shopping tgt.

had my phone serviced.
and all thanks to leslie,
i got to get back my phone a few hours later!
thanks yo!!
you e best.
(:


walked ard,
and i finally got my wristlet from coach.
a gift from my girls.
loves!
thanks so much.
<3


both of us had a nt tt nice lunch at yoshi.
now i regretted so much choosing to dine thr.
such a waste of money.
will dine at a better place next time yea!

i guess we too long nvr shop alr.
was so tired in e train.
anw, i enjoyed myself with her today,
especially those joking period.
more to come.







girl, be happy ok.
no matter what happen,
you still have me and all of us.
will be thr for you 24/7.
you are loved by me!
cheers!!! (:

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exam finally over!
but i dont feel a little happy at all,
instead i got this very heavy feeling,
feeling even more stress.
so weird.

i wanted to get a new phone so badly.
and i just managed to psycho mummy to get pixon for me.
but sad thing is i have to pay myself.
booooo.



life's going smoothly for me now,
hopefully it will continue when im out there working.
and may my interview succeed,
and hope i can do e best out of it.
better not do anything wrong.


sat was baobei shuhan's bdae.
bought barbie girl stationary and watch for her.
and then to funfair for rides.
she damn ke ai.
on e way to funfair keep tell me about freedom.
and for goodness sake!
she's only primary 1.
=.=
but throughout e whole trip there and back,
she really made me laugh like shit.
hope she have a happy bdae.
<3

and then i met up with sweets back from sch.
so long since i met her.
haha i know she misses me loads.
:x

and im so bored.
suddenly so not used to not doing anything.
no sch, no work, no nth.
sigh sigh.


i hate this kind of feeling.

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happy belated v day!

thanks god,
v day is finally over.
barely get to slp this few days.
busy rushing out e orders.
could feel myself falling aslp while driving to deliver.

few days more exam alr.
have to buck up!!
and im missing my cliques alr.
yoohooo,
meet up soon ok.

and whr's class chalet?!?!



i dont want nice food d,
maggie mee will do.


sigh, im so broke!


p.s. i miss my girls too!
hope all of you have a nice v day.
(:

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cny is over alr.
so sad man.
no more gambling session.
and and ang shiwei!!
whr's my mj session?!?!?!?!


headed to jon ah jon's hse on chu 6.
gambled and lost alot ):
but e big winner is weelee and hw.
hoho. a big stack of notes on their side.
all our poor money ended up thr.
just not my luck.
go jon's hse i always lose money. haha.


e rest of new yr i cant really remember what i did except chionging for projs and tests.
and finally its over!
well done dearest grp mates!
we deserve smth relaxing. haha.


and today is e last day of cny.
i spent this last day with my dearest eelin, zixin, kathy and nelson.
they had a hard and long time deciding whr to go after sch.
and they ended up going my hse for steamboat and last min bai nian.
yummie steamboat tt we had.
all thanks to chenmama and chenpapa for helping me thou i didnt do anything at all.
haha.
gambling session and won. hoho.
but eelin won most of my $.
i must get it back from her by pscho-ing her to gamble more!
after tt drove all of them home.
haha and sorry ah im so noob in directions.


v day coming alr.
means less slp to prepare everything.
sigh sigh sigh.


and and wed is officially e last lesson in tp before e 2 exams coming up.
so sad lo.
dont knw will miss going to sch anot.
):
dearest 1B13, 2B01 and 3B01 mates must meet up more often k.
outings, chalets, gambling, shopping, overseas or whatever also can! (if i have e $)
=D


graduation is so near alr.
and i haven decide what i wanna do!!
sian.

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i feel so stress now,
with 2 proj submission on e coming mon,
and i haven even start doing for one of it.
i wonder if i can finish it on time.
sigh.



grades are alright,
but i guess end sem and main exam gonna pull me down alot.
im so tired, real tired.
haven been slping enough and well this few days rushing for projs.
after this week,
no more sch for me except two papers.
uncle very nice,
wanna sponsor me to go uni.
should i or should i not?
chenpapa and chenmama says very ps and bad if accept his money.
=(


mood swing is so bad this few days.
im so sorry for my bad mood and attitude this few days.
sorry team mates, and especially d.
im sorry for throwing tantrum at times.
looks so much like a spoiled kid.

i have been feeling weird all over this few days too.
i just cant figure out whats e reason behind it.
maybe "tt" is e thing and im still having doubts.



anw,
well done for today's presentation.
love you grp mates!
i hope we can survive thru this few days for e next submission.
jiayou!




and hope e v day biz bloooommmmm like flowers!
do support!
(:

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visit http://1-800-flowers.livejournal.com/ for v day flowers, disney soft toys and choco!!
do support k!
thank you!!
sorry for e messiness. haha no time to do it nicely.
(:

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happy niu year ppl!!
hope this niu year will be a fat fat year for everyone.
not size but pocket. haha!

and and not forgetting,
happy bdae to my dearest ongnini and chenyanni!!
(:

im like so bz,
because of projs and test coming up.
and how come niu year holi only got 2days!!
so not enough lo.
like haven enjoy enough tml need go back sch le.
sigh.
how i wish thr's no sch in e morning tml.


xmas eat steamboat for 4 days,
niu year eat steamboat for 4 days again.
im gaining lots of fats.
rahhhh!


anw, im back from msia.
and im missing all my little cousins now.
they are so ke ai de lor.


homework not done,
proj not done,
IJ not done,
and im going to play mj now.
byebye!

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so so tired this few days rushing law, entre and IB proj.
and yet today thr's makeup lesson in e early morning and im in sch damn early.
i hope this two weeks faster go.


shopping at sembawang new shopping centre tt day with d.
thr's damn alot of cars going into e carpark,
so we tried looking for lots at other place.
in e end we parked at some estate and have to walk a long way to e centre.
thr's nth much to shop thr, maybe only cotton on and daiso.
had aston for dinner and walk ard.
cant believe we can stay thr for hours.



i kept skipping lec.
serve me right for not able to understand e tut.


and i want go graduation night!!!
ppl pretty pls go!
(:

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law and IB test is finally over.
damn shag this two days.
hopefully can pass.

today is sat and i still have to attend sch,
for entre forum and law test.
somehow i like e forum because of some things tt they said which makes alot of sense.
overall, i regretted going because i do not have enough time to study for e test.
contradicting i know.
but hopefully god will bless me.
anw, thanks to my super duper ultra nice dad for lending me car to drive to sch so tt i can slp in more.
(:


after sch went for a hairdo.
i so so regretted letting tt auntie do my hair.
thou e colour turns out fine,
BUT SHE CUT MY FRINGE DAMN FRIGGING SHORT!
i felt like killing her and myself.
i should have waited for my hairstylist to finish with her customer.
serve me right.
now my wish is hair faster grow!


e rest of this mth and next mth shall be e busiest mth for me.
with projs dued, exams, reflection journal, cny, makeup lessons, tuitions and also e v day biz.
hopefully i can get thru all this to graduation.



on a sidenote,
not yet shop for cny clothes.
i need money and more money.
shall do some shopping tml.




night peeps!

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im so proud of my sis.
well done for your 'o's!
how i wish i can score so well like her.


feeling so restless.
i want holi so badly.
but holi means graduation is just ard e corner.
sigh.



i need a hairdo soon.

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sch again.
sian.
homework not done,
proj not done.
i have been slacking away my long weekends.

thur celebration for yingting and pearlyne's was great.
think we rock e whole cafe with our voices,
playing werewolves and cahoots.
its superb fun lur.
however e food thr so so only.
headed back to wdl and drove to marina barrage.
we were all so crazy over thr.
e scenery superb nicey.
had loads of fun thr.
hanging out with them is fun!
hope e two bdae girls enjoy their day. (:


however, i did smth to be proud of too.
i learnt how to wrap a bouquet of flowers and im so proud of myself.
but its damn tiring to do all those wrapping.
shall do everything up first.


ytd was mama's advance bdae celebration.
headed to her son's hse for e celebration.
as usual, i played with her grandchildren.
damn ke ai de lor.


and i so so dread of going sch.
only i know why.

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sip report, entre and ma2 test is finally over.
hopefully can get good marks.

valentine coming again!
flower biz is back again,
this time round not with darling they all but with xiaohu & laohu.
gonna learn how to wrap everything ourselves.


graduation is ard e corner only.
i wonder what im gonna do.
sigh.



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2008 wasnt a good yr for me.
i doubt 09 will be good either.
2009 will be a good yr ahead,
for you,
for me,
for us.
(:

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first post of 2009,
happy new yr ppl!
may 2009 be a good year ahead for all of you.
(:


resolution for e yr:
- i happy
- you happy
- everyone happy!



msia firework abit disappointed,
not very long and nice thou.
but its e companions you are with tt makes 2009 a good start!
<3!