...

tot i can reach sch early today to print my econs.
but upon reaching bus stop,
realised i 4gotten to take my ezlink card.
and i walk back home again.
damn,
make me chase after tt stupid bus.

report still have stuff needed to add in.
found 8 articles and only 2 articles are approved.
!#%#$^#&$&$%^$#
waste my time.
GRRRR.

after tutorial,
skipped marketing lec,
and headed to ikea.
darling treating us.
thanks !
=D

we are so 不自量力.
ordered far too much food.
damn full.
had our future crap after eating.
damn,
how i wish i faster grow up.
i wanna see my future.

after tt walked ard ikea,
played with things we see.
choosing e furnitures and showroom we like.
haas.
make me wanto have a hse of my own.
i want i want.

after tt we headed to e new courts.
not much things to see.
played with e hp there.
damn nice.
i like e samsung gold one.
4get is what le.
played with e mp3.
den i sit down infront of one tv,
like a little kid,
watching chicken little,
yingting's favourite. =D

watch until tired den i suggest to go home.
bus-ed home.

next outing will be when giant is open . (:

now,
i dont know what thing to do again.
so bored.

booohooo~

blahh~ our food, like buffet.

darling and my mirror image. =D

mummy, me, darling.

household discussion. so homey.

i finished e whole bottle of red wine. haas. so FAKE. like my nose is drinking.

bastard, yanni, jovine, me. happy family =D
yalah, tallest to e shortest. =x

i miss my girls,
suddenly miss them,
had an urge to go find them.
michelle, xiaohui, leeyun, huini, wendy,
peiyin and co.
and lastly,
10 yrs sister, eunice. =D

next week will be stress days.
with exams, presentations, proj datelines.
damn damn.
worst thing i fear,
jap listening exam.
doubt i can pass.
grrr.

...

wanna say,
a very happy belated birthday to gan-ma!
mama,
生日快乐!
thou she wont be seeing this,
but i hope she will be happy always.
i love her.
i wont 4get e days she brought me up.
playing in her hse.
slping with her until weekends,
mummy and daddy came to bring me home.
我爱你妈妈.

im so unfilial,
i didnt go visit her for so long le.
but well,
gave her a call,
and im happy to hear her voice. =D



lied on bed,
and i still couldnt slp.
so online again.

was lying on my bed thinking of stuff,
listening to music.

well,
i have mix feelings in me.
very weird feelings indeed.

just feel tt,
i wasnt me,
e past me anymore.
i've changed,
more or less,
i guessed.

i couldnt find back e past me.
i dont know whr it has gone to.
well,
i kinda miss e past.
yea,
i really miss.

i've so many things i wanted to say,
yet,
i dont know how to say.
its not easy telling someone.
cus i dont know how to put it into words.


well,
today i done something great.
im done with my industry report this afternoon.
wanted to nap,
but i woke up and on my lappy,
sit down infront of it.
started typing it,
research,
and finally,
i finished it.
nice one.

sch isnt fun anymore.
not as fun as in e past.
some how,
i cn understand,
their feelings.

say what you want.
dont be fake.
tts what i want them to be.

easily annoyed this few days.
i dont know why.
maybe,
i need a space of my own.
to think thru.
to reflect.
maybe.


曾经以为等待会改变什么,
你总会属于我.
im wrong.

i cant get hold of my heart.
its lost,
in e past.

...

pics pics pics!!!

im soooo free now.

grp foto on yt and pearl ai bdae celebration. =D

pearl stuck in e car.

our car someday in e future. eeek. i look so fat. =x

yt pig leg. =x

cake smashing session starts.

BINGO!

BINGO!

...

skipped sch today.

overslept and didnt went for jap grp discussion.
faster wake up when dad called me.
prepare prepare.
dont know why today prepare so slow.
waited at e bus stop.
damn,
e bus so long.
den i change my mind of going to sch.
so i walked home deciding to start on my report.

now back home,
dont feel like doing proj.
felt like slping.
felt like going out.
grrrr.

so many things waiting for me to do,
yet im still slacking.
dumb proj.
dumb sch.

...

rush to sch for pom proj,
cus i couldnt wake up.
reach thr like do nth.
just distribute work and think of some ideas.

blahh blahh blahh.

meet huini and co.
had bbt den bus-ed back.
saw superman in bus.

back home.
i dont know what to do,
when i have so much things need to be done.








人要学会懂得拿起与放下.

...

random pics.



















jia ning and boy. =D



















ah boy, kena torture by us to do tt.



















my girls. <33



















huini's bling bling phone.



















wendy's mickey phone.



















my phone wears skirt.
looks like coffin huh.


dont have pic of leeyun's phone.
yea.
blahhhh~

...

couldnt remember what i did this few days.

ytd went shopping with my girls.
suppose to meet at 2.
but i woke up at 4.30.
prepare and down to town to meet them.
had dinner and shop ard.
decorated our phone at fep.
damn.
so cute lah.
looks abit like coffin?
hehheh.

after tt back to 515 for supper.
damn stupid sam.
kept suan-ing me.
grrrr!
superman and batman came too. =D
cartoon unite!

after tt back home.
den suddenly think tt my phone quite ugly.
looks funny.
duh~
chatted and off to bed.


today met up with wendy.
to brian's company.
damn,
tts e company me and xiaohui went b4.
but only this time round,
we were brought thru presentation and business plan.
damn boring.
felt like slping.
wasnt really listening to what they say.

after tt had a chat with brian at lau pa sat.
he makes me so tempted to join.
he makes me so tempted to succeed and earn loads of money.
he makes me wanto become a businesswoman,
which i nvr ever tot of it b4.
he makes me have a goal in mind.

from a rebellious him i knew in e past,
mixing ard with bad company.
to e him now,
a business manager,
earning money,
having a goal he wants to achieve so much.
well,
im proud of him actually.
except tt he didnt quit smoking. =x

well,
and i agreed in joining.

shop with wendy at fep after tt.
bought one top and hair product.
had dinner den to guess? shop.
wendy bought for her mum guess? bag.
sooo good sias.
haas.

den home sweet home le.

on e way home,
was thinking bout e company.
i think i too 天真 le.
jocelyn succeed?
sounds funny.
jocelyn working hard for money?
sounds weird.
jocelyn is a businesswoman?
omg.
nth to describe.

so so?
should i give it a try?
maybe i should.
no harm trying.
ahhh,
nvm,
contradicting.

i just doubt myself.
tts all.
sickening me.


well, still,
gotta thanks wendy for acc me there and went thru tt boring presentation.
thanks girl =D



just random tots.

...

well,
i didnt intend to go for management tut today.
but e tot of clarifying things,
i woke up.

damn,
i was freaking tired.
i slept in bus all e way to tampines.
well,
actually since sch starts,
i've been slping every trip.

i dont know after e talk,
things will turn good or worst.
but,
i've already said out what i wanted to say.
i dont want to have e dangling feeling there.
finally its off me.
felt so much 轻松.

had lunch den to lib slack.
studied abit of jap,
but no mood to study.
did jap proj den i fell aslp on e table.

damn,
jap test is like freaking difficult.
im afraid i will flunk e paper.
with role play and listening coming,
jap will sure pull down my gpa grade.
regret taking it.

i guess im really tired after all these days.
really.




对于自己的感觉,
我一点都不清楚.
我害怕,
所以才会打不开自己的心门.
钥匙已被丢弃在某个地方.


im not a nice person afterall,
i guess.

or is this just a way to protect myself once again?
nah,
i dont know anything.
just a freaking dumb ass.
dont comment on this pls,
i dont feel good.
just ignore what i said.
thanks.

...

im sick and tired of all this prob.
i wanted everything to end alright.
aren't you all tired of all this things.
damn it.
hope it will be solved tml.
HOPE LAH.
and i better control myself,
and not make things worst.
grrrr.
dumb ass me.

i want class chalet,
i want 89ers girls chalet.
i want go clubbing with sisters and eunice.
i want outings with everyone!






well, suddenly miss eunice loads.
damn,
its been mths since i last met her out.
take care sister.

...

a new yr a new start.
no more grudges i should bear.
brand new start,
i shall 4get bout what has happen b4.
i want a new life,
new start.


seriously,
i dont feel good,
not as in health.
just,
well,
i dont know.
just dont feel good.
i feel bad.
i dont know what im thinking.
leave me alone to sort out my thinking.
im confused,
damn confused.


不知道,我什么都不知道.



im not a good girl.
im not.

...

phew,
feel better after flooding ppl,
well,
sorry to those i flooded.
im just unhappy towards what i saw.

damn damn,
why cant a class be a nice class.
why must class have damn fucking stupid prob.
why cant class be united.
why why why.
why cant our class stand as one like how other class is.
damn fuck up.
im not pissed by her,
but,
im pissed by my class coordination.
arghh.
i want class unite.

damn it.
organise class chalet,
to make us more united.
in e end,
4 freaking person turn up.
i think our class only has 5 person.
damn,
what kind of class is tt.



arghh,
i dont know what im talking bout.
contradicting.
damn ass lah.
dumb me.
im dumb and stupid enough trying to do all this stuff.
and things turn out this way.
what a fuck up sch.

...

stupid internet,
couldnt go into blogger.

yea yea,
grats to tianmu, getting into next round.

im waking up later and later.
felt so tired.
slept on e way to sch and on e way back.

sch was alright,
just tt w/o jovine's voice is like abit quiet.
haas.
well,
nvm,
still got my noisy voice.

back home,
and i dont know what to do.
maybe is too much things need to be done,
or maybe i really have nth to do.
well,
sian.


is e sky dropping down today?
well,
daddy is driving me to sch later.
damn rare.
but i appreciate it and will cherish e ride.

well, gtg.
stress days coming.
freaking @#!%@^#.

...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST YINGTING.
and tml is my dearest aiai birthday,
and e next day is tianmu , moo moo birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST PEARLYNE AI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOO MOO TIANMU!


well well,
i overslept today.
skipped 2 lec in e morning.
went for tutorial in e afternoon,
skip jap lec and back to wdl.
went home first b4 meeting mic and xh to go celebrate dearest yt and pearlyne bdae.

had fun thr.
i was like damn hungry.
ate 2 bowls of rice.
yummy!
and e cake smashing.
damn funny.
well,
e most fun part is e cake throwing in e toilet,
and yt spoiled 2 doors in e toilet.
haas.
after tt back home as i have loads of hmwk to be done.
hope she enjoyed her day.


well well,
thinking of tml lesson,
make me so sian.
i got everday blues.
nono,
can everyday pink?
pink pink nicer.
well,
just being lame.

i've loads of things to be done.
stats tutorial qns on e table waiting for me to do them,
jap test on thur,
freaking shoe waiting for me to go exchange.
marketing management and econs proj to rush.
damn,
24 hrs is not enough for me.
grrrr.


<33 my girls.

...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST YINGTING.
and tml is my dearest aiai birthday,
and e next day is tianmu , moo moo birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST PEARLYNE AI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOO MOO TIANMU!


well well,
i overslept today.
skipped 2 lec in e morning.
went for tutorial in e afternoon,
skip jap lec and back to wdl.
went home first b4 meeting mic and xh to go celebrate dearest yt and pearlyne bdae.

had fun thr.
i was like damn hungry.
ate 2 bowls of rice.
yummy!
and e cake smashing.
damn funny.
well,
e most fun part is e cake throwing in e toilet,
and yt spoiled 2 doors in e toilet.
haas.
after tt back home as i have loads of hmwk to be done.
hope she enjoyed her day.


well well,
thinking of tml lesson,
make me so sian.
i got everday blues.
nono,
can everyday pink?
pink pink nicer.
well,
just being lame.

i've loads of things to be done.
stats tutorial qns on e table waiting for me to do them,
jap test on thur,
freaking shoe waiting for me to go exchange.
marketing management and econs proj to rush.
damn,
24 hrs is not enough for me.
grrrr.


<33 my

...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST YINGTING.
and tml is my dearest aiai birthday,
and e next day is tianmu , moo moo birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST PEARLYNE AI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOO MOO TIANMU!


well well,
i overslept today.
skipped 2 lec in e morning.
went for tutorial in e afternoon,
skip jap lec and back to wdl.
went home first b4 meeting mic and xh to go celebrate dearest yt and pearlyne bdae.

had fun thr.
i was like damn hungry.
ate 2 bowls of rice.
yummy!
and e cake smashing.
damn funny.
well,
e most fun part is e cake throwing in e toilet,
and yt spoiled 2 doors in e toilet.
haas.
after tt back home as i have loads of hmwk to be done.
hope she enjoyed her day.


well well,
thinking of tml lesson,
make me so sian.
i got everday blues.
nono,
can everyday pink?
pink pink nicer.
well,
just being lame.

i've loads of things to be done.
stats tutorial qns on e table waiting for me to do them,
jap test on thur,
freaking shoe waiting for me to go exchange.
marketing management and econs proj to rush.
damn,
24 hrs is not enough for me.
grrrr.


<33

...

ppl,
anyone recommend me job pls.
im so in need of e freaking money.
so broke so sian.

weekends jobs, whatever job,
got money, fun and proper job can liao.
=D



dumb ass.

freaking rashes all come back.
shoooo!







to cwp buy present,
pathetic.
and tt freaking car,
grrr.
nvm.

i got no mood for anything now.


我有阴影.
我害怕,
害怕受伤害.






打不开的心门.

...

well,

haven been posting for long.
im simply lazy,
i guess.

shall keep this post short.

couldnt really remember what i did last few days.

all i could remember is i went sch.
boring sch.
den back home with proj i need to rush.

oh yah,
mr superman visit tp.
but tp too small for him to tour ard.
brought him to have brownies and ice cream.
yummie.

den den went back woodgrove.
sec 1 orientation.
damn exciting.
chatted with teachers for long.
i miss them loads.
i miss sec days.

hmm hmm.
den den, sat went town shop with my girls for awhile.
blahblahblah.
had fun on e way back.
taking dumb dumb pics.
played outside mrt station.
piggy back competition.
den bought tickets for movie.

back home change den out again.

reach movie theatre,
realised i dropped my phone in e bus,
i ran back all my could to get it back.
leeyun ran with me.
thanks.

heng, e bus haven go for another round yet.
i manage to take it back.
thanks to those who called. =D
how stupid can i be.

movie damn nice.
NIGHT AT E MUSEUM.
love it.
thumbs up.
dumb dumb ((:

gonna go get pressie le.
with my empty wallet.
im broke like hell.
i dont know why.
grrr.
nvm.

...

first day of sch,
mark a new start of my studies.
i've to start working hard for my perfect 20.
but you know,
i got wednesday blues.
who cares if there is such a word.

was damn tired cus chatted with superman on phone ytd night.
sch is freaking boring alright.
went sch for just 1 hr.
but i got a gold juicy couture bracelet from my girls.
thanks girls.
distributed out e present we got for e guys.
den blah blah.


to tm with weizhi and co.
they acc me while i wait for mr goh jian chong to come meet me.
he such a slow poke.
haas.

wento get smth for my girls.
den weizhi wento reds for haircut ,
which i dont know really got cut anot,
and which cost him 33 bucks.

after tt mr goh came and he make me walk to another food court for lunch.
damn far.
he treated me to lunch.
yea yea.
im a big eater.
his pocket must be burning now.
ahahas.

after tt he freaking irritating.
dont let me go home slp.
played pool at arcade,
i won and yea!
i could go home.
happy like fuck.

den wento shop and save,
blah blah blah.
den back to woodlands le.

now im back home,
and im so energetic now.
freakish.





im so pissed off alright,
i nearly wanto kill ppl.
叹气when i was with weizhi and co.
fuck fuck fuck.
damn pissed.
arghh.
nvm,
我忍!!!

...

i suddenly remember my new yr resolution i came up with .

here goes:

- happiness for everyone.
- i want happy days and no sad days.
- change for a better person.
- sing w/o touching ppl. lolol. =x
- i want my girls to be united always and happy faces on them.
- swee swee. =s
- lalalalalaaa. good results. perfect 20.
- money money.
- 2007 to go by slowly. dont wanto get old so fast.
- superb duper sweet honey 18 birthday celebration.
- lastly, hehheh, a secret resolution of mine.
=D


isit a resolution or a wish?
or this 2 have e same meaning.
blah.
i have lousy eng.

take care ppl.

all e best for e starting of e sch and year.
((:




bless e one you love by letting them shine on others when he/she couldnt shine on you at all.

...

im back from malaysia =D


went count down with leeyun huini wendy superman and yang.
went marina square first.
had kfc for dinner.
shop ard and to e steps there wait for firework.
kent, ron and co. played games and forfeit there.
spencer came.
halfway rain den stupid,
we wento find shelter and lost our seats.
weiqiang and co. steph and crystal came afterwards.

din really catch e firework but its ok.
im happy with my girls and them ard.
after tt parted ways with leeyun and wendy,
and walked to boat quay.
wanted to find pub sit sit.
but went in to some ,
no seat so headed to riverwalk bridge sit.
had little alcohol.
den i felt sleepy and lie there.
had supper and after tt ,
back to woodlands on e first train.
e train is fugly smelly alright.

slept all e way to 6 and wake up prepare go malaysia.
had dinner there,
play with boyboy and jia ning.
den went for supper with my uncle.
he damn rich ok.
we had such an expensive supper.

back to ah ma hse and hoax e little kids to slp and i fell aslp.

next morning woke up at 8.
e rest wento simpang for my great grandma funeral service.
while me and mum stayed and wento caiyi gugu shop .
well,
a little unfilial.
had facial blah blah blah.

after tt dad came to fetch us.

fugly thing happen.
i felt like slapping tt guy.
we board dad's car,
den this guy came running to my dad's door,
open e door,
and say in hokkien,
"i help you look after your car,
pls give me some money.
i got AIDS!"
he den took out one needle from his pocket and threathen my dad.
FUGLY!
@#!%@$^#%&$%@
YOU THIS FUCKING BASTARD!
DONT TRY TO THREATEN US LAH.
dad took out 1buck,
he say not enough,
den my dad give him 2 buck,
and he went blah blah blah his story.
FUCKING HELL.
but tt needle looks scary man.
freaky bastard.

had dinner at ah ma hse den watch tv den back to singapore le.

tml sch starts.
damn sian.
cant believe holi so fast over.
grrrrrr.







and a little smth for xiaohui:

just to tell you,
tt you are not 4gotten by me,
hees.
cheer up girl.
i will still be there for you.
call me anytime anywhr you want k.
love you still .
smile always girl. =D